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wish you were here - pink floyd |
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im drawing at the moment, bursting into tears
listening to pink floyd
wishing i was cutting or getting high or getting drunk
im currently sleeping at my brother's apartment
i have a flood of mixed emotions
confusion.. doubt.. i dunno >.<
still working at the same piece of shit job
i feel.. hopeless.. useless..
love pink floyd, love it
days have been long and empty
been ordering pc parts online.. im putting together a puter
theres something wrong with me..
in general.. dunno what it is.. dont think anyone should
ever have to find out
i need a holiday -.-
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[07 Sep 2005|06:12am] |
work still sucks, what a big surprise..
ive bothered some people at work, thats always fun ^.^
and.. lets see.. umm..
i dunno.. i've been spending money like crazy..
mostly for my shitty car.. and effing gas that keeps going up >.<
those fuckers..
i get so bored at work, they moved me out to the middle of nowhere..
i think ima go bother these one girls at work, i like bothering people
=o
no big surprise to you ^.^
<3
well, i guess thats all.. later <3
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| long needed update =o |
[19 Aug 2005|07:28am] |
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hotel california |
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ok.. so, august 1 05
started working..
ive been working 9-5 since =o
crazy crazy crazy
met some nice people..
pretty girls..
already taken.. by bfs, fiances, or husbands =o
its like.. everyone is in a hurry to get married
i wonder why.. *ponders for a minute*
my mind blanked on me yesterday at work pretty badly
i couldnt remember my login codes or anything
oh, right.. i work at a call center -> inbound, thank god
my mental emotional and physical energy is drained, badly
i need beer, i think..
the first couple of weeks of working, i wont see any of the money
it will go directly into my car.. what a waste..
yeah, my '80 ford piece of shit..
its my gold-digger-repelant XD
seen some people i hadnt talked to in forever at work..
the other day ran into a girl that i had one class with, many years
ago.. she knows my name.. i didnt know hers.. oooo scary =o
shes really pretty, she has no reason to know my name..
unless i pissed her off somehow =o
*sighs*
i miss talking people about nothing..
all through the night...
now everything is about work >.<
now i gotta go eat breakfast =/
hope whoever still visits me.. (hint hint) i know who you are =o
of course, if you dont read this anymore, its alright, i understand, i love you still ^.^
well.. gotta go, later <3
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[31 May 2005|12:06pm] |
*sighs*
i know some nice girls..
its going.. sorta ok?
i guess..
sammy is pissing me off..
like ALWAYS
i try to get along with her..
but.. i dunno..
shes impossible -.-'
i need to get a job.. though.
at a call center
but my hair is too long.. and i
wont cut it or comb it..
*giggles*
im screwed.. royally
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[17 May 2005|11:19pm] |
1= I like you
2= I love you
3= You're funny
4= You're cool
5= I don't really care for your personality
6= I hate you
7= You're boring
8= You're lame
9= You have an awesome personality
10= you're hot
11= You seem pretty cool
12= Hardly know you, but you seem cool
13= I want to get to know you better
Choose a number(s) that fits me from your view. Then copy and repost this in your journal!
havent written in.. forever -.-'
been busy.. thinking.. drawing.. thinking bout drawing XD
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[11 May 2005|07:59pm] |
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nirvana's cover on : the man who sold the world |
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i love that song.. play it over and
over and over, ill listen to it so
much, it becomes static in the back
ground
i wonder
can a person be hurt so much,
that they no longer feel?
nor pain nor pleasure?
i wonder
about a lot of things
In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)
What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
brought to you by Quizilla
these quizes never lie *gasp*
things could not be worse -.-
never before this bad
<3 krystal
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ill be your inuyasha,
if you'll be my kagome <3
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[11 May 2005|01:41am] |
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<3 krystal
she didnt say she wasnt a hottie *gasp*
so she must be one ^.^
*dances* hurray!
oh, and i had no idea vash (trigun)
wasnt even human =O
and.. umm...
Your Seduction Style: Siren / Rake |
You possess an unbridled sensuality that appeals to many.
The minute you meet anyone, you can make the crave you almost immediately.
You give others the chance to lose control with you... spiraling into carnal bliss.
A dangerous lover, you both fascinate and scare those you attract. |
*giggles* its true, i scare girls...
but i always do that =D
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ill be your inuyasha,
if you'll be my kagome <3
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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| today *gasp* |
[10 May 2005|06:29am] |
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foo fighters -- darling nikki |
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ok.. i went to apply for a job at pizza hut
i was told there were three positions available,
waiter, deliverer, dishwasher
i dont think im a sexy enough beast to be a waiter
*giggles*
i dont want to put the extra miles on my car
pffft, you think im crazy?
i guess that leaves dishwasher...
i have to go this friday to check out the atmosphere
and stuff... and they'll see if they even want me
working there *shrugs*
<3333333333333333333333333333 krystal ze hottie
<3 ashley ze 'attention whore' *giggles softly*
The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. |
In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. |
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[10 May 2005|06:27am] |
ok.. so.. yesterday.. i went to visit my aunts, fun times
i dropped my wallet -.-
she picked it up the next day, and so, today, i went to pick it up
soo.. yeah..
oh, i dreamed.. a dream i didnt seem to want to end..
i dreamt i went to the prom, with minnie..
and i drove her home in my piece of shit car
she.. looked like an.... an.. angel -.-
oh, my pulse looks like its going down, its in like 110 area
was 143, so, yeah
and my dad has diabeties (spelling? *shrugs*)
and others in his family, so, we're.. medium risk, i guess
and.. i saw wild turkeys =O
they're sooooo cute
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[25 Apr 2005|10:51pm] |
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ive been crying my eyes out..
my best friend forever, rachel, says she doesnt like me
cuz her bf doesnt like me...
and.. i cant talk to her now..
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[08 Apr 2005|06:27pm] |
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my sister woke me up today, she rarely visits
we saw the solar eclipse with her teliscope and some
sun spots and prominences that looked like animals..
and krystal is hot in all seriousness
ive been scanning some drawings of mine...
ill post em on a webstie or something someday *shrugs*
<3 you guys
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[05 Apr 2005|01:34am] |
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yum, food |
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green day - good riddance |
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michelle left me.. for some army dude.. that was her ex..
bummer..
krystal, you're attractive..
im kidding my self.. you are attractive.. *giggles*
cuz your the only one who reads this..
i know, funny *smiles*
although i did meet a girl...
she showed me her boobs =O
that usually goes nowhere fast...
<3 you.. as a friend *giggles*
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[01 Apr 2005|12:13am] |
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the beatles - i feel fine |
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<3 krystal
im watchign adult swim <333333333333333
its a bunch of cartoons.. like milk chan,
trigun, inuyasha, big o, venture bros,
futuram, family guy, ghost in the shell,
on cartoon network after midnight
*drools*
yes, ima little kid, what of it?
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| damn ex |
[31 Mar 2005|09:02pm] |
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the man who sold the world |
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hurray! people are looking at my journal *dies of joy*
*giggles*
oh.. i got a visit from the girl that shattered my heart..
yeah, the one, the only, sammy.. *cries*
just when i was feeling ok.. she crushed all of my
hopes and dreams in one swipe of her paw
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| thats pretty effed up right there.. |
[29 Mar 2005|01:33am] |
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the beatles - yesterday |
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damn girls... tell you one thing one day.. then they run off with antoher guy
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really effed up right there..
adult swim lifted my spirits a bit..
<3 adult swim
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[04 Mar 2005|11:44pm] |
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ive been branded undateable... so stay away you... you... crazies
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[02 Mar 2005|11:53pm] |
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i was dead at the time, get used to it =p
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[03 Feb 2004|01:22am] |
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Moby - Porcelain |
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suddenly... ive begun to realize... im slowly drifting back into a state of depression
*sighs*
ive done nothing... i dont want to do anything...
i think i need some booze
i stopped writing html, and python to focus on learning c++
...
heres to what might have been
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[23 Jan 2004|07:30pm] |
*wonders*
dont worry, my prescription ran out... i hope my doctor thinks i should keep on taking em
<3
*giggles*
one more level in wario world.... and i shall have 100 percent completion <3
damn my mom and lil sis... stealing my fossils and stuff from my store in animal crossing >.
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[23 Jan 2004|04:55am] |
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foo fighters -- darling nikki |
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*thinks* right now im mellow, i guess real mellow
and relaxed...
*smiles* i think i am at the most bottomest level of being a hacker
<3
i love the internet
and my puter *pets my puter*
but... i have my doctors appointment coming up soon,
thats gonna suck dirty donkey balls >.<
oh well... i learned something :
if i take twenty of my heart pills, my dreams become crystal clear
i can feel every hair on a cat, if i rub noses with a cat, its wet
and i was also having another wierd dream, where i was sorta
taking out souls out of people, because one body does not conatin one soul
that is why some people are downright evil *wonders what my dreams mean*
maybe i should just lay off my pills....
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